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  • Monkey Dust - a new ghost is on the loose

    Monkey Dust - a new ghost is on the loose

    For some years now, one substance has been attracting more attention from users, experts and medical institutions: Monkey Dust. Emergency services are reporting more and more interventions in connection with this drug - in Germany, particularly in Berlin and Göttingen - although monkey dust represents a comparatively small proportion of the total number of drugs consumed. Public interest has also been growing since 2023, which is reflected in an increase in internet searches.

    But what exactly is Monkey Dust, how and where is it consumed, and why are even experts, who have long favoured personal responsibility on the part of users, explicitly warning against a drug for the first time? The answers to these questions are complex - but one Study by Charité Berlin and the prevention project Sidekicks, in which Monkey Dust users were asked about their consumer behaviour, now provides important information.

    What is Monkey Dust?

    It is not always clear among both experts and users what exactly is meant by “monkey dust”. It is a collective term for a whole range of substances from the class of synthetic cathinones, i.e. artificially produced stimulating substances, chemically related to the khat plant. These include in particular MDPV or MDPHP. Sometimes they are also called “pyros” (pyrovalerones). Other variants are α-PHP or α-PiHP, which circulate as “Alpha” or “Flex”.

    Monkey Dust has a strong stimulant effect and can trigger intense euphoria, increased energy, disinhibition and increased libido. It can also be understood as a smokable, stronger and riskier variant of mephedrone and 3-MMC - similar to how crystal meth is a smokable, stronger and riskier variant of speed. It is a crystalline powder or fine powder that varies in colour from whitish to brown. Some forms are reported to smell like semen.

    It is important to emphasise here that the rate of misdeclaration and contamination of monkey dust is high. Without toxicological analysis, it is often unclear whether what is sold as Monkey Dust is actually synthetic cathinones or other psychoactive substances. Due to different dosages and duration of effect, confusion is particularly dangerous.

    Illustration of a man under the influence of Monkey Dust with paranoid and hallucinatory states
    Artistic depiction of the psychological and physical effects of Monkey Dust, including paranoia and loss of control
    | Photo source: Noah Elio

    In what contexts is Monkey Dust consumed?

    Monkey Dust is most commonly consumed - at least in Berlin - at so-called “chills”, i.e. group sex parties. It thus joins the ranks of the well-known chemsex drugs GHB/GBL, ketamine, mephedrone and crystal meth. Frequent users also mention clubs and festivals as places of consumption.

    However, a remarkable proportion of the users surveyed by Charité (women, heterosexuals) do not fit the chemsex pattern. This is consistent with reports on the consumption of synthetic cathinones in milieus with homelessness and social precarity, such as the „Flex” scene in Göttingen.

    How is Monkey Dust consumed?

    Monkey Dust is usually smoked, but can also be sniffed, swallowed, inserted rectally or injected intravenously. However, the “freebase” version of MDPHP is not water-soluble and sticks to the mucous membranes, making it unsuitable for nasal or rectal consumption. When sniffing, it should be noted that Monkey Dust, despite its chemical relationship to mephedrone, must be dosed much lower, as it is significantly stronger.

    The users surveyed in the study reported consumption levels of up to 2000 mg per session, with a mean value of 488 mg. These figures far exceed the usual dosages given by Sidekicks (5-10 mg when smoking, 10-20 mg when sniffing, 20-40 mg when swallowing). A reliable dosage is often not possible, as Monkey Dust can be present in very different concentrations and degrees of purity.

    Depending on the form taken, the duration of effect is 2 to 8 hours. When smoking, however, after the initial high of 30 to 40 minutes there is a strong urge to top up. If you then top up immediately, the stimulating effect adds up, often resulting in very long sessions. In the study, users reported the duration of a typical session to be up to 72 hours, with an average of around 20 hours. Such a long session can increase the risk of unpleasant side effects. After-effects such as insomnia and increased heart rate can last for 6 to 12 hours.

    How does Monkey Dust feel?

    Typical effects of Monkey Dust are stimulation, desire for sex and disinhibition, but also motivation, alertness, sociability and self-confidence. Rather negative effects include a suppressed feeling of hunger and thirst, hallucinations and a strong urge to crave more.

    In the study, users cited both the reinforcement of positive feelings and the suppression of negative feelings as motives. Monkey Dust triggers a euphoric state, increases sexual performance and intensifies the feelings during sex. Users report that they become “super horny” through consumption and that sex becomes more “animalistic”. Users with frequent use also stated that consumption makes them forget problems, anxiety and depression, and some also use Monkey Dust as self-medication for ADHD.

    What are the side effects and long-term effects of Monkey Dust?

    Common side effects of Monkey Dust include palpitations, high blood pressure, dry mouth, jaw cramps, muscle twitching, nausea, headaches, sweating, anxiety, increased aggression and erectile dysfunction. Overdoses can lead to life-threatening overheating and psychotic states. Sidekicks recommends seeking medical help immediately in the event of acute psychotic disorders.

    Typical side effects when coming down are paranoia and delusions, feelings of guilt and anxiety as well as concentration and memory problems. Physical symptoms include insomnia, headaches, aching limbs and muscle cramps.

    As the duration or frequency of use increases, long-term consequences such as psychosis, exhaustion, cardiovascular problems, a weakened immune system, severe weight loss, depression and social withdrawal become increasingly likely.

    The study participants cited paranoia, panic or anxiety attacks, an unpleasant social environment, weeks of persistent sensory disturbances, severe weight loss, loss of reality, sexual encounters with people they did not like and sexualised violence as negative consequences.

    What other substances is Monkey Dust consumed with?

    Around half of the study participants stated that they usually combined smokable synthetic cathinones with other substances. GHB/GBL was most frequently used simultaneously, followed by 4-/3-MMC, crystal meth and (crack) cocaine. The main reasons given for mixed use were: Increase in sexual desire, intensification of intoxication as well as weakening of the effect, e.g. „GHB to counteract the nervous side effects”.

    Sidekicks warns that mixed consumption places greater strain on the body and mind. The effects of the individual substances can be intensified, weakened or delayed. If Upper Monkey Dust is taken together with a downer (GHB/GBL or alcohol), the effects mask each other - this leads to excessive consumption. If Monkey Dust is mixed with another upper (4-/3-MMC, crystal meth, speed or cocaine), the cardiovascular system is heavily strained, which can lead to overheating and circulatory collapse.

    How do I practise safer use and safer sex?

    Only around a third of respondents stated that they used safer-use strategies when consuming monkey dust, such as „hygiene“, „using personal utensils“, „measuring the dosage“ or „buying from very trustworthy people“. Although this indicates a certain level of risk awareness, it also shows that the majority do not take such measures.

    Sidekicks recommends the following safer-use strategies before consumption Drugchecking or the KnowDrugs-app as well as raising awareness of one's own pre-existing conditions (cardiovascular, metabolic, psychotic or schizophrenic) and strategies for dealing with cravings. When it comes to consumption itself, it is recommended to only test a small amount at first and to measure the dose precisely. If anxiety or paranoia occur, use should be stopped immediately. Overheating should be avoided by taking regular breaks during sex, getting fresh air and drinking enough. Longer breaks of at least 4 to 6 weeks are recommended after use. The use of substances to get high is not recommended, as they harbour a high potential for addiction.

    The effects of Monkey Dust lead to longer and more intense sex. Safer sex practices are often forgotten and the risk of infection with HIV and other sexually transmitted infections increases. It is therefore recommended to clarify in advance which sex practices are wanted and which are not, and to have sufficient safer sex utensils ready. You should only consume so much that you can still clearly say what you want and what you don't want - and also recognise when others are setting boundaries. As always, regular testing for sexually transmitted infections is also recommended.

    What are the interactions with HIV therapy?

    There are still no clear findings on interactions between Monkey Dust and HIV medications. There are indications that certain drugs such as ritonavir could increase MDPV concentrations.

    It is therefore recommended that drugs and HIV medication are always taken at different times, which can minimise possible interactions. In addition, drugs should always be taken in lower doses when taking medication at the same time. Especially during longer sessions, it is easy to forget to take medication altogether - so it is best to always have a reserve of medication with you and to always take it at the right time.

    How problematic is the consumption of Monkey Dust?

    In the study, 60 % of respondents with frequent use and just under 38 % with occasional use showed indications of probable problematic use. 75 % of respondents with frequent use and just under 14 % with occasional use reached a diagnostic threshold indicating probable substance dependence.

    Around a third of those surveyed reported a very strong urge to come back for more (“sometimes after just ten minutes”), frequent loss of control and always or often consuming more than intended during a typical session. In contrast, around half reported only a slight or no urge to use and a third only a slight or no loss of control. This suggests that the compulsive, high-risk patterns of use reported anecdotally may not be universal.

    Nevertheless, it is important to recognise risks at an early stage. The mental and physical health indicators observed in the study indicate a possible increased vulnerability in people who consume Monkey Dust. A third reported currently suffering from a mental disorder and more than a quarter tested positive for clinically relevant symptoms of depression or anxiety. These rates are higher than those of the general population.

    What are the motives and strategies for reducing or quitting?

    Over a third of the study participants have tried to reduce their consumption or stop altogether because they are worried about their own physical and mental health. Many feel deterred by experiences of paranoia as well as risky and transgressive behaviour: „I have seen friends become shadows of themselves within a few months.“

    The following strategies were mentioned: Avoiding consumption contexts (such as deleting dating apps from mobile phones, moving away from Berlin), complete abstinence, seeking therapy or counselling services and participating in self-help groups.

    Anyone who wants to talk about their consumption or is looking for support, who feels they are consuming too much or is worried about friends and acquaintances, can find help at various counselling centres: Gay counselling, Man-O-Meter, Vista , Emergency drug service, organised by Sonar Party drug consultation hours or the consultation hour for party drug-associated diseases of the Charité.

    Anyone interested in the path to complete abstinence can contact non-binding self-help groups such as Narcotics Anonymous or Crystal Meth Anonymous visit. This is where those affected share their experiences and help each other to lead a fulfilling life without drugs. More and more Monkey Dust users who have used in chemsex contexts are finding other sufferers at CMA in particular.

    FAQ: Monkey Dust - effects, risks and consumption

    What exactly is Monkey Dust, how does the drug work and why are experts increasingly warning against it? The most important questions and answers at a glance.

    What is Monkey Dust?

    Monkey Dust is a collective term for synthetic cathinones such as MDPV or MDPHP. These artificially produced substances have a strong stimulating effect and are chemically related to the khat plant.

    How does Monkey Dust work?

    The drug has a strong stimulant effect and can trigger euphoria, increased energy, disinhibition and increased libido. At the same time, side effects such as anxiety or hallucinations are also possible.

    Why is Monkey Dust considered particularly dangerous?

    Monkey Dust is difficult to dose and is often contaminated. The strong urge to vape and the risk of psychosis, overheating and cardiovascular problems make its consumption particularly risky.

    How is Monkey Dust consumed?

    The substance is usually smoked, but can also be snorted, swallowed, consumed rectally or intravenously. The effects and risks vary greatly depending on the form of consumption.

    What side effects can occur?

    The most common side effects include palpitations, high blood pressure, insomnia, paranoia, anxiety and aggression. In severe cases, psychosis or life-threatening conditions can occur.

    Is Monkey Dust widespread in Germany?

    The drug has been rather rare to date, but is gaining increasing attention. In cities such as Berlin in particular, emergency services are reporting an increasing number of call-outs in connection with monkey dust.

    Sources:

    https://sidekicks.berlin/monkeydust

    https://link.springer.com/article/10.1186/s12954-026-01428-8

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  • Monkey Dust

    Monkey Dust

    A monkey emoji in a dating profile seems harmless. But in the gay dating scene, it now often stands for Monkey Dust - a barely researched, highly potent substance that appears primarily in the context of chemsex.

    In a very personal text Jeff Mannes in the magazine VICTORY COLUMN, how he is confronted with it for the first time on a date. The encounter begins in a familiar way: chat, attraction, sex.

    But then something changes. A strange smell, an uneasy feeling - and the realisation that his counterpart has been secretly consuming Monkey Dust. The break is not the consumption itself, but the silence about it.

    What follows is not a sermon on morality, but a reflection on boundaries, responsibility and a lack of knowledge. Months later, the author learns that the man has died. Too young. Too suddenly. Monkey Dust is said to have played a role in the death - but it has not been conclusively clarified.

    What is Monkey Dust? Effects, risks and lack of research

    Monkey Dust is not a clearly defined substance. It is usually a very strong synthetic cathinone that works quickly and can get out of control just as quickly. People report intense pleasure, euphoria and disinhibition - but also anxiety, paranoia, loss of control and waking phases lasting for days. There are hardly any scientifically proven findings. This is precisely what makes the substance so treacherous.

    The text shows: Monkey Dust is talked about a lot in the queer community - but often behind closed doors. Out of fear of stigma. Out of insecurity. Out of a lack of education. But exactly the opposite is needed: honest conversations, knowledge, transparency and solidarity. Not to condemn - but to make risks visible and minimise damage.

    If there is no clarification, Monkey Dust becomes unpredictable

    What makes Monkey Dust particularly dangerous is not only its powerful effect, but above all the lack of knowledge about it. Counselling centres such as Sidekicks.Berlin report that the substance can quickly lead to a loss of control - over quantity, duration and personal limits. People tell of intense periods of wakefulness, anxiety, paranoia and massive mental crises. At the same time, there is little certainty about what happens in the body in the long term. Reliable studies are still almost completely lacking.

    In addition, there is a further risk Drug checking in Berlin Monkey Dust has been detected in samples sold as other substances. This means that people can consume a drug without realising it. This makes unwanted effects, overdoses and dangerous interactions more likely.

    Despite this, Monkey Dust is often only spoken about quietly in the queer community. For fear of stigmatisation, out of insecurity or because experiences are difficult to categorise. Projects such as Sidekicks.Berlin or Checkpoint BLN therefore rely on education rather than condemnation. An accepting, non-moralising attitude is crucial - without ignoring the real risks.

    Honest dialogue, transparent information and supportive solidarity can protect lives. Because as long as knowledge is lacking and consumption remains invisible, monkey dust remains a substance that is difficult to assess - and that is precisely what makes it so dangerous.

    Monkey Dust: Frequently asked questions and answers

    Monkey Dust is increasingly appearing in the context of chemsex, but has hardly been researched and is difficult to assess. Here you will find answers to frequently asked questions about effects, risks and why education is so important.

    What exactly is Monkey Dust?

    Monkey Dust is not a clearly defined substance. It is usually a very strong synthetic cathinone that acts quickly and is associated with high risk. Composition and dosage can vary greatly.

    Why is Monkey Dust considered particularly dangerous?

    The substance often has an unpredictable effect. People report loss of control, anxiety, paranoia, insomnia lasting several days and psychological crises. Reliable scientific findings are still largely lacking.

    What role does Monkey Dust play in the chemsex context?

    Monkey Dust is sometimes consumed as part of chemsex to increase desire, disinhibition or stamina. It becomes particularly risky when consumption is not openly communicated or several substances are combined.

    Why is a lack of education a big problem?

    Lack of knowledge about the effects, dosage and risks increases the risk of overdoses and serious side effects. In addition, Monkey Dust was sometimes found in samples that were sold as other substances - consumption can therefore also happen unintentionally.

    How can you reduce risks when dealing with Monkey Dust?

    Open dialogue, honest agreements and sound information are key. An accepting, non-judgemental attitude helps to make risks visible and support people at an early stage.

  • World AIDS Day: Fighting HIV/AIDS while the world looks away

    World AIDS Day: Fighting HIV/AIDS while the world looks away

    While funds are being cut worldwide and right-wing governments are attacking minorities, queer migrants are reorganising themselves – beyond large institutions, out of sheer necessity and collective strength. On World AIDS Day 2025, Wíner Ramírez Díaz from the Paris collective Maricolandia, how grassroots communities fight HIV/AIDS, discrimination and neoliberal exclusion on a daily basis – and why their resistance is crucial for any future without HIV/AIDS.

    This article highlights key aspects of the fight against HIV/AIDS, drawing on practical experience with the population groups that are most affected both epidemiologically and psychosocially: the so-called key populations. Especially on World AIDS Day on 1 December, it is important to me to highlight activist perspectives. My aim is not so much to present solutions to functional or structural problems, but rather to show the concrete realities on the ground and to sound the alarm in view of the deep-seated dysfunctions that characterise this fight throughout the entire care cascade.[1]

    What is the context of this struggle?

    According to the UNAIDS Fact Sheet 2025, around 40.8 million people worldwide were living with HIV in 2024, and approximately 1.3 million people were newly infected. Around 630,000 people died of AIDS-related illnesses in 2024, and around 31.6 million people gained access to antiretroviral therapy.

    These figures clearly show how great the challenge remains to achieve a world without HIV/AIDS. In Europe, for example, according to the WHO Regional Director for Europe, Dr Hans Henri P. Kluge, half of the people living with HIV in Eastern Europe and Central Asia still do not have access to antiretroviral treatment. Since 2010, this figure has risen by 49 % – in a region that is among those with the highest rates of new HIV infections worldwide.[2]

    The contradictions in the struggle

    In the 1980s, the emergence of AIDS fundamentally changed the dynamics of sexual minority movements. Gay and bisexual men were the hardest hit within the LGBTQIA+ community. This tragic turning point was also a moment of coming together: people with non-normative sexuality organised themselves to counter the crisis. This led to the creation of organisations such as ACT UP (internationally known), AIDES in France, Deutsche Aidshilfe (DAH) and others – as well as intra-community movements such as the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence, whose commitment continues to this day.

    2008 marked a real revolution in HIV prevention: the „Swiss Declaration“ by Professor Hirschel and colleagues, which stated that people with HIV who are successfully treated and have a viral load below the detection limit no longer transmit HIV during sex; and the advent of PrEP. Both developments ushered in a fundamental paradigm shift in the toolbox of HIV/AIDS prevention. According to sociologist Cyriac Bouchet-Mayer, however, the 2010s also represent a turning point: traditional condom promotion took a back seat, while testing and access to preventive multi-therapies for „key populations“ gained in importance. But apart from a privileged group of men who have sex with men (MSM), other key groups – such as intravenous drug users, sex workers and migrants – are hardly present in testing centres.

    However, this exclusion is not limited to hospitals: it extends to most institutional facilities that are actually supposed to reach precisely these population groups. Campaigns to combat HIV/AIDS have become more representative in recent years – for example, for racialised people, trans people, fat people and migrants. However, the life experiences of extremely small minorities remain marginalised. They stand at a crossroads of diverse structural oppressions that shape and complicate their lives. The very groups that are considered „key groups“ in public health – and should therefore be at the centre of prevention and risk reduction measures – are also the ones most affected by exclusion.

    The difficulties faced by extremely small minority groups 

    In the report on World AIDS Day 2025 entitled „Overcoming disruptions, transforming the response to AIDS“ (roughly translated as: „Overcoming obstacles, changing the response to AIDS“), UNAIDS notes a drastic decline in international aid. This is due to the policies of governments in the northern hemisphere, which are increasingly withdrawing from the global fight against HIV/AIDS.

    For large NGOs, this decline poses an existential threat. Shrinking financial resources jeopardise prevention efforts. They also jeopardise access to treatment. This makes the goal of defeating HIV by 2030 increasingly difficult to achieve.

    At the same time, something new is emerging despite funding cuts. Despite the waves of hatred fuelled by far-right governments against LGBTQIA+, trans people and migrants, rebellious community projects are growing. They are emerging outside of traditional association structures. They are reacting with resistance to the shift to the right in the global North. In Europe, anti-migration measures are further hindering the social participation of these groups.

    Various LGBTQIA+ migrant movements work closely with networks, associations and hospitals – individually and collectively. They protect their own health and promote prevention tools such as PrEP, TasP and PEP. The study „Parcours en France“ (2015) from public health research shows that many migrants only become infected with HIV after arriving in France. LGBTQIA+ migrants and migrant sex workers face numerous hurdles. Administrative, linguistic and material barriers affect their health. At the same time, they increase the risk of experiencing violence.

    Dangerous laws: How France is abandoning queer migrants with HIV

    In France, people with HIV/AIDS can generally apply for a residence permit on medical grounds. The reason for this is that in many countries of origin, access to medication is lacking. However, the authorities are increasingly rejecting these applications. Instead, those affected receive OQTF notices (Obligation de Quitter le Territoire Français), meaning they must leave French territory. This puts their lives in acute danger.

    This reality became particularly apparent during the COVID pandemic. Migrants faced enormous difficulties in accessing preventive measures such as therapy or PrEP – regardless of whether they were living with HIV or working in the sex industry. Many were barely able to go about their daily lives without running a high risk of being stopped by the police.

    Added to this is the French law of 2016, which provides for the punishment of clients in sex work. It poses an acute danger to sex workers, whether they have a migration background or not. The so-called Nordic model has been shown to lead to more risky sexual encounters without condoms. It is accompanied by an increase in sexualised and sexist violence. Criminalisation is driving many sex workers underground. Since 2018, at least three South American trans women have been killed in the sex industry. For years, numerous organisations have been denouncing this legal situation – because it makes life much harder for trans and LGBTQIA+ migrants.

    Back to basics – struggle and collective resistance: a collective experience

    In 2018, a group of queer migrants from Latin America came together. This led to the formation of a community in a major European city. Together, they fight against HIV/AIDS and the discrimination that shapes the lives of queer, migrant and sex workers.

    With Maricolandia, we have created a collective. It offers a space for queer and trans people from the Global South who have migrated to the Global North. The space is open to all migrants who identify as «maricas» – i.e. queer, gay, trans, etc. – and live in France or other parts of Europe. Our collective is based on mutual support, sharing, love and queer joie de vivre. As a collective, we take a stand against transphobia, homophobia, racism, xenophobia, serophobia (discrimination based on HIV status), homonationalism, gaypitalism, precariousness and neoliberalism. At the same time, we denounce the socio-institutional logics appropriated by the state and the market.

    Siblings who have also migrated from the south are also welcome in our space. Many of us have been and continue to be affected by various forms of oppression. These include migration status, sexuality, HIV status and other factors. Despite limited resources and little room for autonomous organisation, we have built up a network of solidarity. It primarily supports undocumented migrants, asylum seekers and migrant sex workers. We are also confronted with the reality of chemsex. That is why we work closely with public health services. This gives marginalised people access to risk reduction services and ensures that they are well supported within our community.

    Self-organisation in action: prevention, political work and joie de vivre

    Our work focuses on the precarious living conditions of migrants, health and prevention, and all the administrative and everyday steps involved. This horizontal support takes place in our workshops, in French courses for everyday life, and in our various social counselling services. At the same time, we participate in political events – and organise some ourselves.

    In the evenings, we create moments where we can dance, be loud and wild – and at the same time strengthen each other for the activities that lie ahead.

    Every weekend, we hold a French course, organised by us for us. This course helps us to break through the isolation of our siblings and learn the language. At the same time, we convey important messages about risk reduction and prevention in the area of sexual and community health in the workshops. We share our collective knowledge to address diverse forms of oppression, administrative hurdles, difficulties in finding housing, studying or asylum procedures, problems with sexual health or dealing with chemsex.

    We organise days and celebrations to raise funds for our work. And we never forget that this fight will from us and for led us – because we have no other choice.

    Working together to combat HIV/AIDS

    Our shared space allows us to reflect on what the fight against HIV/AIDS must look like in the coming years – and how we are already fighting it in our everyday lives. This fight is comprehensive: it cannot be reduced to epidemiological or health policy issues. The struggle of LGBTQIA+ migrants is inextricably linked to the struggles of all sexual minorities and must be anti-racist, anti-xenophobic, feminist, disability-friendly and, of course, HIV-inclusive.

    Our collective experience strengthens our resistance. This is how we fight back against the ultra-neoliberal functional logic that characterises many large organisations in the fight against HIV/AIDS. These structures increasingly function as service providers for a capitalist, neoliberal system. They enforce competition and use the work of sexual minorities as a resource to maintain this logic. We take a clear anti-homonationalist. Our identities are non-negotiable. They must never be used to legitimise hatred or violence against our brothers and sisters.

    365 days of World AIDS Day, 365 days of resistance: against gay capitalism, hatred and indifference

    We live in a time when many rights that were long taken for granted are once again being called into question. Ultra-conservative forces are openly attacking them. Our collective projects must therefore be a counter-model: they should inspire, counter indifference and oppose the commercialisation of our identities („gaypitalism“). At the same time, they oppose a tendency within our own communities to suppress political struggles in favour of individualised pleasure-seeking. This logic ignores people who are like us and suffer from diverse forms of oppression.

    Finally, I invite everyone to realise that our fight does not only take place on World AIDS Day on 1 December. We are active 365 days a year. We are fighting to prevent HIV/AIDS transmission in ultra-minority groups such as LGBTQIA+ migrants.domestic and migrant sex workersAnd we are fighting for more dignified living conditions overall.

    The experiences of HIV-positive people must be heard beyond the usual prevention slogans, which reduce their reality to „undetectable = untransmittable“. We must not forget that HIV/AIDS primarily affects those who are most at risk and exposed to multiple levels of oppression.

    Let's mobilise, take action – and join the fight together on World AIDS Day!

    [1] The UNAIDS HIV cascade targets 95-95-95 are a global goal to eradicate the HIV/AIDS epidemic through improved access to medical care. They are divided into three main targets, each of which is to be achieved by 2030: 95% of people living with HIV are aware of their status. Of these, 95% receive life-saving medication. And of these, 95% respond so well to the medication that HIV is not sexually transmissible.

    [2] https://www.who.int/europe/fr/news/item/22-07-2024-statement—ending-aids-by-2030–we-can-keep-the-promise

  • Drawing from the full: the spoon theory of mental health

    Drawing from the full: the spoon theory of mental health

    Jonathan, you have launched a new campaign: the so-called "spoon theory". Explain: what's it all about?  

    In recent years, we have noticed that queer people who have been stigmatised several times in particular have become more open about topics such as Mental well-being and mental illness. Queer men in particular have a strong need for exchange in relation to mental health, especially in times like the pandemic, when many counselling centres and contact points were not available. In addition, mental health also has an effect on sexual health, which is why it is directly linked to our mission.

    The idea for the "spoon theory" came from the US-American activist Christine Miserandinowho developed this theory in 2003 to explain the management of energy in chronic illnesses. Here, "spoons" are metaphorical units for energy, whereby each person has a differently limited number of them. For example, someone with a chronic or mental illness needs more spoons (i.e. energy) to cope with everyday life than a person without these limitations. The situation is similar for people who are structurally discriminated against. Over the years, this theory has developed into a "spoony movement" in order to better understand the use of resources. And we now want to bring this debate into the gay and queer communities.

    It sounds a bit theoretical at first - how do you explain this theory to people? 

    We have found various ways to visualise the theory. These include flyers with various motifs that represent different aspects of queer life, for example non-binary pride, trans pride, gay pride or the Aids ribbon. These spoons link to the website where the theory is explained. Our aim is for people to be able to organise their everyday lives better and feel encouraged to talk to each other about their experiences. For example, by normalising the sentence "Hey, I don't have that much energy today; I think I hardly have any spoons left today" to a certain extent. Or "I only have a few spoons left today and I still have to manage this or that with them." We want to promote a community of solidarity in which people can support each other.

    The spoon theory may seem abstract at first, but it is relevant for all people. Queer people often carry additional burdens due to discrimination in society. For example Minority stress - In other words, a form of stress that only minorities are exposed to due to discrimination and stigma. There are also people with mental health problems, such as depression, panic attacks or anxiety disorders, which affect their energy levels. For example, I myself spent four months in a day clinic and had far fewer spoons during this time because I had to use a lot of energy to get out of bed and to the clinic in the morning. The spoon theory gives you a tool to explain this to other people: "Hey, you might have had ten spoons at your disposal yesterday, but unfortunately I only had five. That's why my day was more difficult to manage and I didn't manage to call you." This theory can help to make difficult topics more understandable and help people to recognise their own limitations.

    How will the campaign be implemented and where will you come across it?

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Who do you want to address and what goals are you pursuing?

    Our campaign is not only aimed at sufferers, but also at relatives, carers and society as a whole. For example, I was able to use the theory to explain to my in-laws and grandparents what it is like to live with depression. We want to raise awareness of mental health and encourage people to talk about their experiences.

    Our hope is that many people will pass on the flyers during the CDS season, pass the spoons on to others and start conversations. We also often receive messages telling us that people are very interested in the topic of mental health. And we want to continue working on this as a campaign. With the EMIS studythe largest European study on the health of gay and bi+ men and trans people, is also partly about mental health. Our prevention work aims to bring people into dialogue and remove taboos. We want to reduce shame and encourage people to seriously enquire about how others are feeling. To ask "How are you?" and to be genuinely interested in the answer. That is what we hope and wish for. Our aim is to create a supportive community that supports each other and removes taboos around mental health.

    Thank you very much for the interview, Jonathan!

  • When people seeking advice become counsellors themselves: Results of the study on sexual health in trans and non-binary communities

    When people seeking advice become counsellors themselves: Results of the study on sexual health in trans and non-binary communities

    Chris, thank you for taking the time. What was the starting point for the realisation of this research project?

    The starting point for the project was that although there is a great deal of community knowledge, there was no reliable data available for German-speaking countries. Against the background of the international data situation, e.g. in North America, it was obvious that people from the trans and non-binary communities also belong to the vulnerable groups with regard to HIV and STI. This gave rise to the idea of collecting this missing scientific data together with the RKI.

    What were the aims of the research project?

    The goals were diverse. On the German AIDS service organisation side, we had 4 subject areas that interested us. These were

    1. How is sexuality and language perceived and experienced?
    2. What aspects play a role in a positive self-image?
    3. What barriers are there to utilising existing services in the context of sexual health?
    4. What factors influence sexual health?

    The RKI's aim was to obtain data on the spread and prevalence of HIV and STIs in the relevant communities and to identify factors that play a role in sexuality and therefore in sexual risks. In other words, to determine needs and experiences in the context of sexuality, HIV, prevention, counselling and care.

    In other words, the RKI was more concerned with the quantitative part and the DAH with the qualitative part. Can you outline this in more detail? In other words, how was the project structured and how important was participatory research?

    The participatory research approach was the element that connected both parts. From the outset, it was important for both sides to involve community representatives. For example, there was a project advisory board made up of representatives from the communities that accompanied the project from start to finish. The advisory board played a critical role in the monitoring process, for example in the context of feedback loops. However, it was also important that the project was consistently carried out and implemented by people who were and are themselves representatives of the relevant communities, despite a number of staff changes during the course of the project.

    The online questionnaire was also developed in a participatory manner at the RKI and was completed by over 3,000 people in the end.

    At DAH, we also conducted interviews in various forms. What was unique and new was that we combined the data collection with elements of empowerment for the participants. At the weekend events, for example, we initially wanted to create a space that allowed people to talk about these very intimate topics of sexuality and sexual health and to show their vulnerability in the process. It was important to us that everyone could benefit and take something away with them. We didn't just want to "explore" the people, we also wanted everyone to be able to take something away with them at the end. Be it new contacts, new perspectives or new knowledge. In addition to these three weekend events, there were also one-day events, two completely anonymous online events and four individual interviews. In the individual interviews, it was important to us to reflect the perspectives that were neglected in the other surveys. We had a total of 59 participants in the qualitative part.

    After a tweet from the RKI, there was a huge shitstorm and TERFs, as well as other opponents, were called upon to sabotage the survey. Of the 10,000 completed questionnaires, only 3,000 could be analysed in the end.

    That really sounds like a very exciting and worthwhile approach. What challenges did you face in the project?

    One of the biggest challenges with the questionnaire was that it had to be subjected to very intensive data cleansing. The reason for this was that there was a huge shitstorm after a tweet from the RKI and TERFs and other opponents were called upon to sabotage the survey. Of the 10,000 completed questionnaires, only the 3,000 mentioned above could be included in the final analysis. This also shows once again how much rejection there is and how active the opposing side is online. Nevertheless, and this is the most important thing: so many people honestly filled in this questionnaire of more than 100 questions because the topic was important to them.

    Another challenge was that we unfortunately did not manage to reach all people from the different trans and non-binary communities in the qualitative part. For example, there were only a few trans women or HIV-positive participants overall.

    Perhaps we should have organised another weekend explicitly for trans women only. But these are very important findings that we would like to try to take more into account in follow-up projects. Because if the study has shown one thing, and this is not really a surprise, it is how diverse the trans and non-binary communities are overall.

    This brings us to the results. What are the key results and findings of the study?

    I would once again differentiate between RKI and DAH. An overarching key finding was the diversity of the communities in terms of gender identities, but also in terms of sexual orientations and bodies and lived sexuality. A broader understanding of safer sex among the participants, which goes far beyond the understanding of safer sex as protection against HIV/STI and also includes, for example, psychosocial aspects such as consent and communication, is one of the key findings. The aspect of consensus and communication in particular ran through all the events. That it is important to be asked how body parts are named, but also to ask questions yourself. It became clear that it takes more than pure HIV/STI prevention to feel safe to live one's own sexuality with others.

    On the other hand, there was also a not-so-surprising finding that highlighted the inadequate care situation for trans and non-binary people in the area of sexual health and the counselling and testing landscape. Nationwide, three projects were repeatedly mentioned in the interviews that were rated as good. In the qualitative section, projects with a peer-to-peer approach were rated particularly highly. Projects without such an approach tended to be rated lower. However, this is also a point in which the results of the RKI and the DAH differ, as the RKI also explicitly asked about this again. According to the RKI survey, 62.4% of people were also satisfied with the counselling, even if it did not have a peer-to-peer approach.

    The final key finding was how important prevention knowledge is for personal empowerment and the importance of knowledge sharing in communities and between peers. These are factors that lead to taking care of oneself, one's own body and one's own sexual health and thus also generate a higher self-esteem.
    The key finding of the RKI is that HIV/STI vulnerabilities occur in patterns similar to those described in the research literature. At the same time, the RKI was able to highlight the barriers that exist when it comes to making use of counselling and testing services in the health sector. For example, shame and previous or feared experiences of discrimination in the counselling setting are factors that lead to people virtually anticipating discrimination and thinking twice about whether to take up this offer because they expect to have similar experiences again.

    People come to counselling as people seeking advice and end up having to explain the reality of their own lives to the person giving the advice.

    You have already mentioned some of the obstacles that trans and non-binary people face with regard to their sexual health and protection against HIV/STIs. Would you like to add any more and what can be done about them?

    In particular, the lack of adequate services explicitly aimed at trans and non-binary people is one of the biggest hurdles. But also the lack of knowledge in the various areas. On the one hand, the very different levels of knowledge in the trans and non-binary communities, but also the lack of access to or lack of appropriate resources. On the other hand, the lack of knowledge on the part of the counsellors. Many participants reported that there is often a role reversal. In other words, people come to counselling as people seeking advice and end up having to explain the reality of their own lives to the counsellor. This imbalance should not exist and must therefore be urgently addressed and reduced by means of nationwide training (based on a training curriculum) by counselling centres by building up knowledge. The experiences mentioned above, such as invasive questions, deadnaming when calling or the use of incorrect pronouns, also play a special role here. According to the survey, this lack or scarcity of knowledge in the counselling centres was one of the main hurdles.

    What other aspects play a special role in sexual health and protection against HIV/STIs for trans and non-binary people?

    A particularly important aspect is that people feel addressed by the counselling and taken seriously in order to get what they need and help them further.
    This can be new knowledge or physical self-awareness through body appropriation. Sharing experiences with other people from the community can help reduce anxiety and make you feel more confident. Getting tested together with friends can also help to reduce anxiety and take care of each other's sexual health. This can definitely be a small happening, so perhaps go to a café together beforehand and then get tested afterwards. Community can play an important role here.

    Don't be alarmed, now comes a small block of questions, but they all belong together: What are the prevalences in relation to HIV/STIs and how do they differ compared to other groups? What specific factors lead to people from trans and non-binary communities having an increased vulnerability to HIV and other STIs? And what role does this have for future HIV/STI prevention?

    HIV prevalence in the trans and non-binary communities is 0.7%, which is significantly higher than in society as a whole, where it is 0.1%. Compared to the prevalence of HIV in MSM, it is significantly lower. According to the last EMIS study from 2017, this is 11%. A new EMIS study is currently underway that will update this figure again. Based on these two comparison groups, however, it is already very clear that a prevalence seven times as high is not insignificant. Nevertheless, it is also important to differentiate between the trans and non-binary communities, as these have different prevalence rates.

    This internalised trans negativity is particularly evident in a quote from our study, which I would like to quote here: "I already trust my counterpart with my trans body. I don't feel like I have to insist that we use a condom."

    An important factor for the increased vulnerability is the social stigmatisation of trans and non-binary people and their internalisation. This internalised trans negativity is particularly evident in a quote from our study, which I would like to quote here: "I already trust my counterpart with my trans body. I don't feel like I have to insist that we use a condom." That's blatant and incredibly difficult to hear. But it also shows the consequences that self-image and self-worth have on lived sexuality.

    At the same time, shame was also an important factor, and we also identified the lack of knowledge in relation to safer sex, barrier methods, STIs etc. as stress factors. At this intersection, body dysphoria and transition processes, such as gender reassignment surgery, are further factors that can also have an impact on one's own protective behaviour. Finally, counselling and testing services also play an important role. People reported negative experiences that they themselves had had with services that labelled themselves as trans-inclusive, but where basic things such as the difference between trans men and trans women were not known.

    These experiences are continuing and that would also be the point where future prevention work should start. In other words, the creation of needs-orientated services and peer-to-peer offers. We need more knowledge, more sensitisation and greater consideration of trans and non-binary people in their living environments and realities. This should definitely be taken on board for future prevention work.

    What protection strategies are available for trans and non-binary people with regard to HIV and STIs? Are these already known or is there a lack of knowledge in certain areas, so that some are perhaps not considered?

    It is fundamental to say that the communities themselves are very diverse and so are the protection strategies within them, again with regard to very different levels of knowledge. Some people are well informed, others rather poorly. For example, the Condom as a protection strategy, but for many it was also the only protection strategy they knew. Knowledge of other protection strategies depends on the subcommunities in which individuals move. For example, trans and non-binary people who are more likely to be in gay communities even those who have at least heard of the PrEP and the PEP have heard of them. This does not mean that they have taken them themselves, but that they were familiar with them.
    Other things that were mentioned were lick cloths, but also practices such as peeing after sex or hand hygiene. That's how different the levels of knowledge and understanding of protection strategies were.

    What about the use of HIV/STI counselling services? What experiences do trans and non-binary people have in these settings? What is already working well, what needs to be improved? Are there best practice examples of successful counselling services or approaches?

    The participants reported that they also repeatedly experience discriminatory situations in HIV/STI counselling services, whether at local AIDS service organisations or other services.

    Peer-to-peer programmes were generally rated positively. What all best practice examples have in common is that they are mainly found in large cities. Many people sometimes have to travel very long distances to take advantage of these services, which highlights the problem of comprehensive care and services. So-called testing days specifically for trans and non-binary people, and in some cases also inter people, are also well received.

    Above all, the expansion of peer-to-peer services was recommended and also that services that do not have a peer-to-peer approach should undergo further training in order to sensitise themselves and demonstrate an appreciative and non-aggressive manner. This means that counselling should be respectful, especially with regard to gender identity, names and pronouns, and this should be collected using questionnaires, for example, so that the doctor knows how the person would like to be called. Unfortunately, it still happens far too often that people are called by their dead name, i.e. the old name they have filed away, or that they are addressed with the wrong gender. These are all problems that often happen before the actual counselling and then of course have a lot to do with how I approach the counselling. This means that the entire practice team needs to be sensitised to these aspects.

    What are the most important recommendations for counselling on sexual health and HIV/STI that have emerged from the study?

    On the one hand, there is information tailored to trans and non-binary people, which should also be known to counsellors or can be used for appropriate further training. This is also associated with an appreciative attitude, respectful and appreciative language and the counselling centres should recognise the diversity of the trans and non-binary communities and be geared towards them. Intersectional approaches are needed, particularly with a view to diversity, in order to reach as many people as possible.

    In the future, we need to consider what it means to work in an intersectional way and review existing programmes accordingly. For example, if I only reach white trans and non-binary people, then it is not an intersectional approach. Then I have to check what I can do so that I can also reach other people.

    What do the results mean for existing community projects in the field of sexual health and HIV/STI prevention?

    We should bear in mind that not all communities are the same, but that they are very diverse and that we should rather speak of communities here. Not all projects that claim to be queer have explicitly dealt with trans and non-binary lifeworlds or are not automatically competent in trans issues. In future, it will be necessary to consider what it means in concrete terms to work intersectionally and to review the existing programmes in this regard. It is important to sharpen the focus and realise who I want to reach and who I have (not) reached so far. If, for example, I only white trans and non-binary people, then it's not an intersectional approach. Then I have to check what I can do so that I can also reach other people. Future or existing community projects should also be able to scrutinise themselves, reflect and clarify for themselves who they specifically want to reach and compare this with the status quo in order to then make adjustments and see what needs to change in order to reach more people or reach the people they want to reach.

    Have things already changed or developed after the study was carried out? If so, which ones and what is the next step with the results?

    At DAH, we have designed a follow-up project (SeBiCo), which is funded by Techniker Krankenkasse. With a view to the recommendation, we have set ourselves the goal of transferring knowledge to the communities on the one hand and promoting peer-to-peer work on the other. The first step is to train twelve multipliers who themselves come from the trans and non-binary communities. We want to train them as trainers who will then lead peer-to-peer workshops. In other words, we are ultimately developing two different curricula, one curriculum for the trainer training and then a curriculum for the peer-to-peer workshops. The idea is that the people we train can subsequently implement these workshops themselves in the cities in which they live, linked to the local AIDS service organisations or other providers. This promotes dialogue with the community, but also among the multipliers. It was not easy to select the twelve multipliers, as there was a great deal of interest in the training series. We are very pleased to get to know these people personally.

    We are ultimately developing two different curricula, one curriculum for the trainer training and then a curriculum for the peer-to-peer workshops. The idea is that the people we train can subsequently implement these workshops themselves in the cities in which they live, linked to the local AIDS service organisations or other providers.

    Is there anything else that is important for you to say and should definitely not be missing from our interview?

    For me, it's nice to see what's happening now after the research report and the brochure.

    With the follow-up project, we now have a new training ground to reorganise ourselves and approach things differently. The new multiplier training is a kind of live development in which we have to be very flexible if we realise that something might not be quite right and then consider how we can do it differently. I'm really looking forward to being involved right from the start.

    Thank you very much for your time and the insights into the study results as well as the outlook for the upcoming follow-up project, for which I wish you every success.


    You can find more information about the research project here. You can download the brochure free of charge from the Shop of the Deutsche Aidshilfe or here download. The more detailed research report is available on the website of the RKI to find. And here you can find the follow-up project "Sexual education in trans and non-binary communities" (SeBiCo).

  • #MyMentalMe: How healthy is the bisexual male soul?

    #MyMentalMe: How healthy is the bisexual male soul?

    Bi+ Men - Visibility and health

    • Be a real man ...
    • Yes, I used to say that I was bisexual too, you'll come out as gay ...
    • It's okay that you're bi, but it's nothing for me ...
    • Why don't you decide - gay or straight ...
    • Do you always have to come up with this topic ...
    • But I am not bisexual ...You don't even know who you are with now!!!

    There are plenty of prejudices and stupid comments when you come out as bisexual or pansexual. Only a few people really know anything about the subject, but everyone thinks they have to make a comment and devalue you.

    March is Bisexual Health Month, and Bi+Pride, which has been fighting for bi+sexual visibility since 2021, is not only showing its commitment in September with demonstrations, workshops and bi flag-raisings. In Hamburg and Schleswig-Holstein, several large billboards also make it clear: "Discrimination makes you sick."[1]

    Bi+ is not the same as Bi+

    But don't bi+ men have it much easier? They can hide in a "hetero relationship" and secretly live out their "homosexual lust"?

    First of all, bi+ is not the same as bi+. For example, there are monogamous pansexual men who may be in a committed relationship with a man, but can also fall in love with a woman or non-binary person. But then there are also bisexual men who are in an open relationship with a woman and date men on the side. Or men who call themselves queer or don't use a label at all and are active in both the swinger scene and the male cruising scene. Some are out, others see no reason to tell everyone, and still others don't come out at all, because then their wife would leave them immediately.

    The fact is that bisexual (bi+) men are discriminated against from several sides:

    Heteronormative society rejects bi+ men because they are supposedly gay in disguise and are somehow even harder to see through: Which gender do they fancy? Can't they make up their minds?

    And in the queer community, as a bi+ man you are sometimes ridiculed and not taken seriously. A gay man once told me that he fancied me, but that he could never be sure if an attractive woman turned up.

    The invisibility of bisexual men

    In the study "Bi+(In)visibility in Germany" (2023)[2] revealed that a third of respondents would like more bi+ visibility in the queer community. In general, almost all (94%) never to [only] sometimes feel generally visible.

    No matter which study you look at on the subject, the keyword "visibility" crops up again and again. One's own identity is questioned by others.

    The media talk about "gay marriage", although it can affect bi+ people just as much. Freddy Mercury is celebrated as a gay icon, in "Bohemian Rhapsody" his sexual orientation is clearly shown, but nevertheless recognised. And "Brokeback Mountain" is supposedly about gay cowboys, but they are actually bisexual shepherds. And even if there is no active "bisexual erasure", i.e. bisexuality is made invisible, the question remains as to whether you will be seen. After all, most people only think that two men canoodling in the street are probably gay. And no one thinks about the sexual orientation of a man and a woman, but when asked "of course normal ... er ... straight". You would have to walk around holding hands in a threesome, and then the word bisexual is also avoided. You would then be a swinger, polyamorous or simply shrill.

    But this invisibility does something to people: According to the Human Rights Campaign Foundation (HRC)[3] bisexuals have an increased risk of mental health problems due to prejudice and "minority stress". Stereotypes such as "bisexuality doesn't exist", "bisexuals are promiscuous", "bisexuals are confused" are mentioned here. There is also talk of double discrimination here - from the heterosexual and queer side.

    Julia Shaw writes in her book "Bi: Discovering Diverse Love" (2022)[4] that most people are bisexual but don't live it.

    Bi+ flag with the title: "How healthy is the bisexual male soul?"
    The Bi+ flag and the title of the article symbolise visibility and mental health.

    Experiences and personal stories of bisexual men

    As a bi+ activist, I'm certainly no longer quiet and timid, but I used to struggle with not knowing any other bisexuals, not being recognised by women as a potential partner and not being taken seriously in the community. Before I came out, people whispered behind my back about whether I was gay, someone even tried to blackmail me. And after I came out, someone at work thought they had the right to know who I was in a relationship with and who I was having sex with.

    I also questioned myself again and again: Are you really bisexual? Do you want to live with a woman or a man? Are the others perhaps right when they say I have to choose? Fortunately, I came to the realisation that I am 100% bisexual and that this is a good thing.

    One bisexual campaigner for bisexual visibility, for example, is still plagued by fears and insecurity even after a long period of activism. He is very clearly out and posts something about bisexuality every day. And yet he sometimes has doubts about whether he will really be accepted, doesn't trust himself and doubts.

    Another bi man would like to tell his wife that he also likes men, but then she would (in his opinion) leave him immediately. He struggles between suppressing his sexual needs and secretly cheating.

    A third man lives in a same-sex relationship and hides his sexual identity because he then has to explain so much, then calls himself gay for the sake of simplicity, but is not quite happy with it.

    One bisexual pupil reports bullying and that he always feels like he doesn't belong. In general, the experience shows that more and more bisexual and lesbian girls, trans* and non-binary young people are coming out at school and are active in queer clubs. However, gay and bisexual boys are much less visible, presumably due to fears of being discriminated against. It is absolutely essential that the continued funding of good educational projects is secured.

    Rosa Linde Leipzig e. V. reported at the beginning of 2024, for example, that queer educational work is no longer to be funded. [5]

    It remains unclear how the federal action plan "Queer Leben" will proceed - the LSVD criticises in an open letter that key points have not yet been delivered. Funding for "schools of diversity" would also be absolutely essential for bi+ pupils.[6]

    The HRC published a study on bisexual young people in 2019: 96% had difficulty falling asleep at night, 83% of bi+ young people of colour had experienced racism, more than 75% felt hopeless and worthless, only 19% had come out to their parents (compared to 29% of their homosexual peers), only 13% received important information about their sexual orientation, such as safer sex (incl. PrEP), and many regretted that adults thought it was just a phase. For example on safer sex (including PrEP), many regret that adults think it is just a phase. Other studies have also shown higher rates of suicidal thoughts and drug abuse.[7]

    A 2020 study in the EU only recognised a slightly worse state of health among bisexual men compared to gay men, but it is generally significantly worse than among heterosexual men.[8]

    I could see from the comments under Philip Eickner's interview with me from 2021 that there is still work to be done in the gay community: A lot of biphobic reactions popped up here. But of course there are also positive examples - gay men who support bisexual campaigns and are real allies - I'm thinking, for example, of great collaborations with IWWIT and the LSVD (both regionally and at a national level). It's so important and valuable that we in the queer community fight together and not against each other[.[9]

    I would like that,

    • that bisexuality is more recognised as a legitimate option,
    • that bi+ people are received positively,
    • The media should report more and better on bisexuality,
    • queer organisations really think along with the B,
    • as a bi+ man you are not generally excluded as a partner,
    • there is also more education and studies in the health sector.

    After all, it's about time that a bisexual man came out in the German Bundestag. There are actually already three out bisexual women (all from the Greens), two trans* women (also from the Greens), one trans* man used to be in the Bundestag, and there are many gay and lesbian MPs. But there are zero bisexual men.[10]

    What can bisexual (bi+) men do for their health?

    Of course, each person has to decide for themselves whether they want to come out. I can only recommend it because it's important and healthy to be true to yourself and not deny your identity. If you have real friends, support and feel reasonably safe - go ahead. Seek support and dare to do it!

    But if there are still problems - you can find help, counselling and therapy, for example, through the VLSP, the association for lesbian, gay, bisexual, trans*, inter* and queer people in psychology, or through Queermed Deutschland (the person behind it has already received several awards for her valuable work).[11][12]

    Network with other men, for example at meetings organised by BiNe - Bisexuelles Netzwerk e. V. or at regional regulars' tables. The next Bi+Pride in Hamburg is also a great opportunity to make new contacts and show visibility.

    Don't let anyone tell you that there's something wrong with you or that you have to make a decision. You've already made up your mind: You are bisexual, pansexual, bi+, open to multiple genders, polysexual, omnisexual, biromantic, queer - or whatever you call yourself. And that is exactly what is right and valuable.

    This can also change - some bi+ people do become gay or straight at some point, and some gay or straight people still become bisexual in old age or actually always have been. But you still have to decide for yourself, not conversion therapy or well-meaning advice from a friend who supposedly knows you better.

    Be self-confident, recognise the great things about bisexuality, educate yourself about the various options for safer sex with changing partners and stand up for those who don't yet dare to do so.[13][14][15]

    Also on my to-do list is definitely to read the book "Bisexual Men Exist" by Vaneet Mehta - certainly an empowering work for anyone who identifies this way.[16]


    Footnotes

    1. [1] https://bipride.de/bisexual-health-month/
    2. [2] https://www.instagram.com/bivisible_germany/
    3. [3] HRC Bi Health Brief
    4. [4] Julia Shaw Interview
    5. [5] Rosa Linde Leipzig
    6. [6] LSVD Open Letter
    7. [7] HRC Bi Youth Report
    8. [8] LSVD Health LSBTIQ*
    9. [9] IWWIT Interview
    10. [10] queer.de Bundestag
    11. [11] VLSP Consultancy
    12. [12] Queermed Germany
    13. [13] BiNe meeting
    14. [14] BiNe group list
    15. [15] Bi+Pride Hamburg
    16. [16] Vaneet Mehta book

  • #MyMentalMe: When the soul suffers

    #MyMentalMe: When the soul suffers

    Trigger warning: This article is about mental illness, depression, anxiety, substance use, eating disorders and suicide. If this is something that could bother you, then skip this article or read it with caution.

    The signs range from sleep disorders, feelings of anxiety and mood swings to uncontrolled alcohol and drug consumption. A mental illness does not always have to be the cause. Such negative feelings and exceptional mental situations can be merely temporary, but they can also be harbingers of a major crisis. The number of people whose mental health is not in good shape has increased, not least as a result of coronavirus. Nevertheless, far too little is said about this, even within the queer scene. Yet queer people are particularly affected. For example, loneliness, anxiety and sleep disorders are disproportionately common among LGBTIQ people, as a study published by Bielefeld University in 2021 shows. According to the study, queer people are two and a half times more likely to suffer from depression over the course of their lives than heterosexual people.

    In addition, young gay men in particular are increasingly suffering from eating disorders, says Berlin psychologist Marcus Behrens.

    Caught up in your own negative feelings and thoughts

    During counselling sessions in his own practice or at Checkpoint Mann-O-Meter, he experiences gay men who are plagued by self-doubt and feelings of inferiority, who suffer from a persistently depressed mood, are caught up in endless brooding or even think about suicide. "Sometimes these negative feelings and thoughts have already become so much a part of their own personality that they are no longer recognised as a problem, or are recognised too late," says Behrens.

    His colleague Martin Heinze from the queer counselling centre Rubicon in Cologne has a very similar experience. The qualified educationalist has been offering a sympathetic ear, advice and help for three decades now. The problems that people come to him for have basically remained the same over this long period of time.

    This is because LGBTIQ people are exposed to particular stress. Even though living conditions in Germany have improved significantly, the realisation that you are different from others can still be very stressful - especially for young people. In addition, coming to terms with sexual identity and orientation is still often associated with suffering and discrimination, but also with shame, fear and internalised self-stigmatisation.

    Being gay, lesbian, trans* or bi also means having to come out again and again throughout your life, for example to new friends or work colleagues. This also means constantly having to weigh up the risks and possible reactions or even having to pretend. Or you always have to be very controlled in public - for fear of being identified as gay and therefore being insulted or even physically attacked.

    When stress makes you ill

    "We all have stress in life, even heterosexuals white cis man. But when it comes to minorities, there's always an extra layer," explains Marcus Behrens.

    "If a heterosexual man goes on holiday, he doesn't have to ask himself when booking whether he might be mobbed or even arrested in the destination country because of his sexual orientation."

    The social sciences have coined the term "minority stress" for this particular form of psychological stress. Not only LGBTIQ people are exposed to it, but also people with a history of migration, BIPoC or poor, socially disadvantaged people.

    But while, for example Black While people usually grow up in a family with other BIPoC and can therefore at least be strengthened in their identity within this family, this is not usually the case for LGBTIQ people. Having to cope with this stress is an enormous burden and is not healthy in the long term. "If my immune system is good, it is easier for the body to fight off a flu virus than if it is weakened," explains Marcus Behrens." The same applies to the soul. If everything becomes too much for me and I can no longer cope with it all, there is a risk that I will fall ill.

    Not all aspects of gay life are always good for you

    The gay community can also be stressful and have a negative impact on your mental well-being. Interaction in the real and virtual scene is not always friendly and supportive. If you're overlooked in the bar or sauna and can't make contact, it can be quite upsetting in the long run. "On Planetromeo, Grindr and the like, I have to be aware that it's mostly just about attractive pictures and not really about me," says Marcus Behrens. Fortunately, however, there are not the a community. "If the dating platforms cause me stress, I might have to look for other places to get in touch with others."

    Fortunately, you can also meet men outside of sexual scenes and dating apps, for example in self-help groups, queer associations and organisations or on online platforms where sexual contact is not the main priority.

    Because friendships and close acquaintances are enormously important for mental health.

    "Even if it's difficult: it's important to vent"

    "It's already very helpful to have a good emotional relationship with just one other person - be it a good mate, a best friend or a parent," says Marcus Behrens. "People who make me feel safe and a bit at home, who I can open up to and talk to about things. People I can talk to openly about weaknesses and feelings, including negative ones. They don't just have to be queer people, but ideally good allies who reflect your own way of life."

    "Even if it's difficult, it's important to vent," confirms Jonathan Gregory. "That's why you need at least one person with whom you feel safe and with whom you can open up, share and confide: 'I'm not feeling so good right now. Something is bothering me'". Jonathan Gregory has been part of the newly established ICH WEISS WAS ICH TU team since 2023. As its director, he is passionate about making mental health the central theme of the gay prevention campaign.

    Because mental illness can affect anyone. Gregory experienced this himself in 2022 when he had to attend a day clinic for four months due to severe depression.

    "At first, I was unsure whether this was right for me as a Black gay man is actually a place where I can be healthy. Will I be recognised and accepted there for who I am? These are questions that straight men don't have to ask themselves," says Gregory. But his concerns were quickly dispelled "I then had the positive experience that I wasn't the only queer person there and I also got the help I was looking for."

    Seeking help is not a weakness, it is courageous

    Realising that you are not feeling well, that you need support and that you want to accept it, is a very important first step. You should seek professional help if you become increasingly caught up in thought loops, suffer from long-term sleep problems or try to compensate for negative feelings with excessive porn or alcohol consumption or a series of sex dates, for example. "If I have the feeling that I can no longer control this myself, but am being controlled by it, this can be an important indication of a mental health crisis," explains Rubicon counsellor Martin Heinze.

    However, long-term therapeutic support or even hospitalisation are only necessary in cases of severe mental illness.

    Counselling centres are good places to go to get out of a mental slump. If necessary, they can also refer you to queer-experienced psychologists.

    "It helped me a lot to realise that others have had very similar experiences with depression and mental health to mine," says Jonathan Gregory. That's why socialising with other gay men - whether privately or in support groups - is an important help.

    "I can pull the duvet over my head and stay at home, that's fine sometimes," says Martin Heinze. "But it's important that I also manage to deal with the things that are bothering me". If you can't do this on your own, it's important not to bury yourself at home and withdraw from the world, but to make contact with others. This could be professional support from a therapist or talking to friends.

    Marcus Behrens advises people to look at their own needs and feelings and how they feel, either alone or in dialogue - and to pay attention to themselves. You may then realise what you have not yet admitted to yourself: that you may feel lonely or consume alcohol and drugs uncontrollably.

    Just as important: accepting yourself with all your weaknesses, shortcomings and good qualities. How do I behave and is this really good for me? Are my habits perhaps keeping me in this situation instead of leading me out?

    Instead of resigning yourself to existing problems, it is better to look for solutions: What can I do myself? What would improve the situation? Who could support me or what help could I get?

    Rediscover the beauty in life

    Gregory has adopted a little exercise from his therapy into his everyday life and has been treating himself to a little time-out every day ever since. "I give myself two or three minutes to close my eyes, focus completely on myself and listen to myself. And to reduce stress in this way."

    Marcus Behrens recommends another exercise to help you see not only the stressful things in life, but also the beautiful things: every morning, put five small stones or other small objects in one of your trouser pockets. Over the course of the day, you put one in the other pocket every time you have a nice experience. "These occasions can be small things: a nice phone call, a good meal, a friendly encounter in the supermarket," explains Behrens. In the evening, however, you realise that there were a lot of good things that day." "You can also train your brain a little in this way so that it doesn't always just register things that don't work or that worry me, but the good things in everyday life and the things I enjoyed."

    But you can also give yourself pleasure in a very targeted way. By resolving to do appropriate things: cooking yourself something nice to eat or (if you have enough money) treating yourself to a restaurant visit. Meet up with friends, go for a walk in the park, visit the public library, paint or make something.

    "Hey, how are you doing right now?"

    And last but not least, everyone can contribute to making other people feel better. The simple question "How are you?" can already help a lot - if you mean this question seriously and give the person the space to answer it honestly.

    "We can only strengthen mental well-being together as a queer community by looking out for each other and realising that it is an aspect that accompanies us in all areas of life," says Jonathan Gregory. "And if we don't shy away from being honest with ourselves and addressing the burdens we face." IWWIT would like to make a small contribution to this over the course of the year with the "#MyMentalMe" campaign and, last but not least, ensure greater visibility of the topic in the queer community.

  • PrEP bottleneck: What to do?

    PrEP bottleneck: What to do?

    There is only one drug authorised for PrEP in Germany. It is hardly available at the moment. Some pharmacies have remaining stocks, but more and more PrEP users are going without. Patients have also had to switch to other medications for their HIV treatment. A situation that is likely to continue until at least March 2024. This was reported by the Association of Outpatient Physicians for Infectious Diseases and HIV Medicine (dagnä) in a Press Release.

    In some cities, PrEP is no longer available at all, as IWWIT has learned from local organisations. In others, such as Berlin, some surgeries are only prescribing monthly packs so that the medication lasts longer - normally one pack lasts for three months. The situation is getting worse by the day.

    The reasons for the problem are complex. For example, according to our information, two factories have production problems. There also appear to be individual difficulties in the supply chain and increased demand. Price differences on the European pharmaceutical market are also likely to play a role: Manufacturers in many neighbouring countries apparently receive more money for their medicines than in Germany.

    Jonathan Gregory, Head of IWWIT: "It's difficult to say when the situation will ease again. One thing is clear: we have a shortage and not all people who need the medication for PrEP or therapy can be supplied at the moment. There's nothing to gloss over."

    Nevertheless, there are still some ways in which PrEP users can obtain their medication. Below are our suggestions for dealing with this difficult situation.

    What PrEP users can do now

    Contact HIV pharmacies

    If your pharmacy no longer has PrEP, contact a pharmacy. Member of the HIV-competent pharmacies working group (DAHKA). These pharmacies exchange information with each other and support each other in supplying PrEP if there are still stocks available. You can also make enquiries via online pharmacies. To do this, ask your doctor for an e-prescription. This makes ordering much easier.

    Individual imports from abroad

    Pharmacies can try to order the PrEP medication abroad if they obtain prior authorisation from the health insurance company. Some pharmacies do not know this or are afraid of the effort involved. It is best to ask for an "individual import in accordance with Section 73 (3) of the German Medicines Act (AMG)". However, there is no guarantee that the pharmacy will do this and that medication will be available abroad.

    Occasion-related PrEP

    For some users of daily continuous PrEP, it could also be an option to switch, at least temporarily, to so-called event-related PrEP, where you only take tablets before and after (planned) sex. You can find more information on this at aidshilfe.de/hiv-prep/einnahmeschema.

    Approach the practice early for therapy

    If you are using the combination of emtricitabine plus tenofovir disoproxil in your HIV treatment, contact your doctor's surgery before your tablets run out so that there is enough time to try to obtain new ones.

    Check other safer sex options

    If nothing helps, you can consider whether other safer sex options such as condoms or protection through therapy are an option for you until PrEP is available again.

    Exchange ideas

    It can also be helpful to talk to other PrEP users about their experiences, for example in the Facebook group PreP.Now. Of course you can also register with our Gay Health Chat or with another Offer of the Deutsche Aidshilfe get advice.

    We demand security of supply

    Deutsche Aidshilfe is campaigning for security of supply for HIV drugs and has called on the Federal Ministry of Health and the Federal Institute for Drugs and Medical Devices (BfArM) to solve the supply problems.

    "We won't let up until everyone who needs the medication for PrEP or therapy gets it. You can count on it!" says IWWIT campaign leader Gregory.

    Message from Deutsche Aidshilfe on the PrEP bottleneck

    Press release by dagnä

  • Mpox containment: success of the community?

    Mpox containment: success of the community?

    They were headlines that nobody wanted to read: In May 2022, in the midst of the coronavirus pandemic, the media reported a "monkeypox outbreak" in Europe. The virus soon spread across the continent at a speed that worried experts.

    However, the majority of the population soon seemed to breathe a sigh of relief. It is true that "monkeypox" is not a sexually transmitted disease in the strictest sense; the virus can be passed on through close skin contact. However, the vast majority of those infected were, and still are, men who have sex with men. According to the Robert Koch Institute, out of a total of 3,670 cases nationwide (as of 6 December), only 19 female cases, four cases in male adolescents and two cases in children under 14 years of age have been reported to date.

    In international reporting, this led to "monkeypox" soon being incorrectly labelled as a "gay disease" by some media outlets. For some, this brought back dark memories of the media's discriminatory and erroneous handling of the AIDS crisis in the 1980s. Back then, HIV and AIDS were also dismissed as something that only affected gay men. 

    Stigmatisation of the communities

    "Because the group of gay and bisexual men made up the majority of cases, some of the reporting made it sound as if it was a disease that only affects gay men," says Timo. The 27-year-old student lives in Berlin and actually goes by a different name. However, because the topic is still associated with stigma, he prefers to remain anonymous. "The name 'monkey pox' felt very discriminatory," he continued. 

    The World Health Organisation (WHO) has also recognised that the name "monkeypox" has a stigmatising effect on those affected. "Following consultations with global experts, the WHO will begin to use the new preferred name Mpox as a synonym for monkeypox." These are the words of a statement from the organisation.

    "In clubs, women have said to me that they don't want to drink from my bottle because we gays are dealing with monkeypox"

    Timo

    But it wasn't just the reporting that Timo found problematic. It was also difficult for him how people outside the community dealt with the outbreak: "In clubs, women said to me that they didn't want to drink from my bottle because we gays have to deal with monkeypox," reports the Berliner-by-choice. 

    However, the most inglorious role during the Mpox outbreak was probably played by the state. Its actions or inaction during the peak phase left many perplexed and angry. This is because the vaccination campaign against the virus was delayed in many places - even when the vaccine was already available in some cases. It almost seemed as if nothing had been learnt from the coronavirus pandemic.

    Failed vaccination management and its far-reaching consequences

    Berlin, of all places, attracted negative attention with its consistently unsuccessful vaccination management. Yet the city was Germany's Mpox hotspot, and nowhere else were as many people infected with the virus as in Berlin. According to the Daily Mirror the metropolis was storing around 8,000 vaccine doses that could not be administered due to bureaucratic obstacles.

    Holger Wicht, press spokesman for Deutsche Aidshilfe, told the rbb"Those responsible have to ask themselves whether they really take the protection of those affected, especially men who have sex with men, seriously."

    "Those responsible have to ask themselves whether they really take the protection of those affected, especially men who have sex with men, seriously."

    Holger Wicht, press spokesman for Deutsche Aidshilfe

    The failed vaccination management not only meant that those willing to be vaccinated did not get the vaccine and the risk of infection remained high - but also had much more far-reaching consequences, according to Dirk Sander, also from Deutsche Aidshilfe: "There was also anger and sadness in the communities because people had been looking forward to a relatively corona-free summer. The psyche of some was not the best. I also heard from the scene that the consumption of alcohol and other drugs during this time was 'partly suicidal'."

    According to Sander, many gay and bisexual men simply felt left in the lurch: "Statements such as: 'They should keep their feet still, then they won't need a vaccination' have contributed to this feeling," he explains. 

    Timo also knows how difficult it was to get a vaccination at the beginning: "I tried to get a vaccination appointment with my GP." But he was told to try again in four to six weeks. The student was also put off calling the specially set up vaccination hotline. He quickly felt disillusioned - and the feeling that he was on his own. 

    Containing the virus thanks to the communities

    He therefore decided to proactively limit his sexual behaviour. "Friends told me how painful an infection can be. It just worried me too much," he explains. He was also afraid of the three-week isolation. "Having to spend three weeks alone in my flat in the middle of summer - I was just too scared of that." 

    Maurice, who actually has a different name, and his partner, with whom the 29-year-old lives in an open relationship, also decided to take action themselves: "We radically renounced any sexual adventures," he reports. And he also had to wait a long time for a vaccination: "I wrote to 25 practices until I got an appointment after about three weeks," says Maurice. 

    "It has already been proven that gay and bisexual men adapted their behaviour after the first media reports. Otherwise, the course of the epidemic would be inexplicable."

    Dirk Sander, German AIDS Service Organisation

    Like Timo and Maurice, many other men who have sex with men have also restricted their sexual behaviour. Sander says: "It has already been proven that gay and bisexual men adapted their behaviour after the first media reports. Otherwise, the course of the epidemic would be inexplicable. The vaccinations came quite late and then bit by bit." According to the RKI, the number of Mpox cases has been declining since August, with only single-digit case numbers reported since mid-October. During the peak phase, there were 420 cases per week.  

    A success that the communities, not the state, can take credit for. But does the Mpox outbreak have long-term consequences? Have gay and bisexual men possibly lost the fun and desire to have sex? Sander says: "Based on internal statistics from the leisure sector of gay men, you could clearly see that the mood was changing again: after more and more people were vaccinated and the numbers fell, behaviour returned to normal. Fortunately!"

    According to the Standing Committee on Vaccination (STIKO), the vaccine is now available throughout Germany. Anyone who has only received one dose or none at all should now be able to get an appointment quickly and easily. The expert group advises anyone who has only received the vaccine once to get a second dose. Anyone who has not yet been vaccinated should do so, according to the STIKO. "The outbreak is not over yet..." 

    More info about Mpox
    Fortunately, Mpox usually heals on its own, but can have very unpleasant and painful symptoms. The best protection is vaccination. It is free of charge and also possible for people without an insurance card.

    You can find all the information in German, English, Ukrainian and Russian at www.iwwit.de/mpox.